A New Beginning...
I bought an external hard drive a couple of months ago to replace my aging 5 year old internal ones which were running purely on sheer will and whatever bit of lubricant still left in there.
When everything was finally backed up, I breathed a sigh of relief knowing that every digital trace of my entire existence; my photos, projects, articles and even my precious church sermons, would be in a safe place...
Then it died.
2 months! Nothing has ever died on me in 2 months before... Even my chilli plant lasted longer than that! (Oh, about the plant... Yes, it's dead too) ^_^
I didn't really want to believe that all my chronologically arranged sermons, my painstakingly edited photos, my drafted research articles from university and my CARTOONS were all gone. I kept visualising in my head that I would hear the distinct hum of the hard drive starting up again, but all I hear are the futile clicks and whirls of the drive desperately trying to revive itself.
I was mentally distraught and emotionally hysterical the whole day! Fortunately, the Lord helped me realise that all I had lost were just memories; events of the past that couldn't be changed anyway. Sure there were hard times, but there were also great times. However those memories were confining me instead of refining me. And it took a hard drive crash for me to break free from the ghost of my past.
Now those memories will only live on in my mind... But this time no one can take them away from me.
It's a new beginning. A start of a whole lot of new memories.
Rest in peace, my past...