A Prayer for you Computer People...
Psalm 23 - Version 2.0 -

The Lord Is My Programmer, I Shall Not Crash...

He Installed His Software on the Hard Disk of My Heart...

All of His Commands Are User Friendly...

His Directory Guides Me to the Right Choices for His Name's Sake...

Even Though I Scroll Thru the Problem of Life, I Will Fear No Bugs...

For He Is My Backup...

His Password Protects Me...

He Prepares a Manual Before Me In The Presence Of My Enemies...

His Help Is Only a Keystroke Away...

Surely Goodness and Mercy Will Follow Me All the Days of My Life...

And My File Will Be Merged With His and Saved Forever...

Amen.

To fill a hole in my heart...

Loneliness creeps in after a while.
Time slows down but I still try to smile.
Being hurt by someone close is bad enough,
Living alone in this cold room is going to be tough...

The warmth in my life was taken away.
Even though the love was gone a long time ago...
At least I had a reason to convince myself,
That my life had a beautiful glow...

Now my heart lies naked on the cold hard floor.
I wish someone could save me from this misery and more...
By faith I know my heart will heal.
In God, my heart will find the strength to feel...

Though my heart feels lonely and abandoned,
Its full of joy and contentment...
My love shall now pour to the rest of world,
Who I know appreciates me more...


Thank You Lord for all You've done...

I tell you the truth...

Judgment is a pretty sensitive topic to talk about, especially as a Christian. We've been raised to understand that no one but God is entitled to judge us and I believe that with all my heart. We judge people so many times but we don't see it, until we are judged. It is just sad that the world we live in today, we're judged by our actions rather than our reasons. Can we honestly say that we didn't judge at all?

Now things get a little interesting when we see people doing things that we believe are wrong. (Note my choice of words here... "we believe" instead of "we know") We try to bring their mistakes to their attention but no one seems to take heed of our advice.

"Who are you to say that I am wrong? Who are you to judge? You don't know my history... You haven't heard the full story..."

I have come to understand that it is human nature to resist change. We have never favored others telling us to change. I don't like it too. We don't mind telling others to change. I do that all the time. When it comes to us, oh no... *not listening...*

There are times when we tell the "truth" to people, our friends, family and loved ones, but they choose to rebuke it . I understand that they have their reasons for doing so. Some don't like to be told. (Proverbs 16:18) Others have their own "truths" in their heart. How do I tell someone the truth when he thinks he knows it already? What if it is I who's wrong?

There is One who can tell us to change. There is One who will show us the path of righteousness. There is One who will tell us right from wrong. There is One whose voice we cannot ignore. (John 16:13-15)

I'm not perfect and I'm not always right. But I won't stop telling others to change, if I see the need for them to do so. I won't pursue them after that though, cause I need to exercise my faith in God that His plan will succeed. If I'm wrong, then through the Holy Spirit, my words will come back to me eventually and I pray for the strength to change myself. But if I'm right, I know He'll humble them and make them understand eventually.(John 3:19-21) I understand that by saying all that, I'm allowing others to do the same to me... Well, thats the price I've got to pay then... And I thank all who do so.

God's teaching me a lesson now... I feel He's showing me how to effectively let people (including me) see how their actions may become a stumbling block to others. And how to let people see that my opinions are not piercing darts to hurt and humiliate them, but as beams of support to strengthen them. (Ephesians 5:8-14) So that one day God can use us to glorify Him through our righteousness and faith in the Lord. (1 Peter 2:11-12)

I've never meant to hurt anyone. To all my friends that I have hurt in one way or another through my words, I am truly sorry. (James 3:6-12)

If you've friends or family who does things that goes against your faith, or your heart, I hope that you'll find the strength and wisdom in God to tell them, your loved ones...

Because remember, the reason why we even bother, is because we love...

Can we hear God speaking to us?

As still as we are,
Every wanting to hear His voice,
We find silence all around us...

We keep talking to Him,
Sharing our thoughts,
But nothing seems to come back...

Our friends and family surround us,
Words of wisdom they share,
Yet nothing from above...

Under the covers we close our eyes,
We appear to be all alone in this world.
How I wish You could hold me till the sun rises...

Take the hurt away from me,
Let me not see it again,
For it is too much for me to bear...

Comfort me with Your grace and love,
Assure me with Your smile,
And relieve me of this pain I'm suffering...

Shower me with the joys of life,
The blessings of peace,
Make my life whole again...

Please...

A Poem to God

I see the light of this world,
I see it shining...
I see everyone trying to do their best,
To keep it from dying...

Must we be tested time and time again,
Must we endure such horrible pain,
Must we go through hurt and suffering,
In order to see our true aim...

Are we here to speak Your name?
Change our lives and others,
So that they'll never be the same...
The light of the world we are, cause You came...

Show us how to live our lives.
Show us our purpose of this world.
Show us how to glorify Your Name.
In this place where darkness fills, its cold...

By our actions, let us be the light.
In people's lives, may we shine so bright...
Helping people in their way,
To seek you oh Lord, every single day...

Amen...

An ode to my loved one

Love is such a wonderful thing...
But fragile it is; like a piece of string.
Cherish it forever all u guys...
The last thing u want is the sound of goodbyes.

Love is like chocolate cake...
U wish u could eat it forever - till u get a tummy ache.
How nice it would be to set aside our differences,
Live life and forget the consequences...

Love ain't an easy thing.
You never know what it may bring...
But no matter what happens, please smile.
Make everything we had, worthwhile...

The time we had was short - but sweet.
But u did so much; u got me off the ground, on my two feet.
Even though the times we spent were rare,
You always seem to be constantly there...

We're both captains of our own ship now.
Our paths have diverged somehow...
The circumstances which made it so are hard to explain,
But I guess it means nothing to u - now that I've thrown our relationship down the drain.

I'm sorry it had to be this way.
There's really nothing else for me to say.
I hope u'll see the path that God has laid for you...
For there's a reason for everything we go through.

I know it is hard for u to forgive...
I won't ask for anything else other than for u to live...
Live your life to the fullest my friend,
For this is what I would do; if I was still with u in the end.

Take care & God bless...

To all my experienced blogging friends out there, I sense that u all would have figured out the reason of my 1 week absence from the blogging scene... Yes, u've guessed it. I lost the will to blog. I almost fell victim to the curse of my unable-to-maintain-a-diary habit again. But the very fact that u're reading this shows that my fortune teller was way off about my lack of determination *stupid fortune cookie*

One important lesson that I've learnt this week was how waking up early could do wonders to your day... Many years ago, there was another Andy; an evil Andy, who could sleep till the wee hours of the afternoon. Life was good then. He didn't have to make the bed cause he would be sleeping again a couple of hours later anyway *grin*

He never had to tiptoe across the freezing toilet floor, never had to trifle with the morning flu and frozen noses, and never would he mistake his sister's room for the toilet again. (All u need to know is that it was dark and I kept my pants on k...) haha...

But now that my sis and I are sharing the car, I've got to send her to work in order for me to use it later. Only problem is that my sis is special... she ain't like all u other white, blue or red collar workers out there who works from 9-5.
She starts at 6am *notice my calm and sedate expression*
-_-

Her job u may ask? She's a nurse. One of the best out there - in my personal opinion. She works so hard that I couldn't live with myself if I didn't at least send her to work. She has a kind of radiance that makes her patients just, happy... except for that old pervert who keeps touching her hand. *grrrr...*

But 6am... other people are still prancing around in their fields of flowers in lalaland while I'm stoning at my balcony watching the grass grow. Then I asked myself... how could I make use of this time that God has given to me? Sure its cold, its dark, its quiet, its cold... (hmm, did I mention that already?) but why not make use of this precious couple of hours to get stuff done? Its amazing how much u can squeeze into a morning like this... managed to wash the car, vacuum the house, do all my laundry, clear my emails, do my weights, all before my lecture at 10am. Surely now of course I'm feeling like crap (muscle aching everywhere), but at least I'll go to sleep knowing that my work's done for the day.

Today we've been blessed with an extra day... even better, it's a Sunday! There just something about a leap day that just makes u want to think, to reflect on your day. Lets just hope that I don't end up reflecting on my life only once every four years *wink*

It is human nature to ask for more - more money, more time, more food, more sleep, more friends, more happiness, more freedom, more love... Now that we've been given another 24 hours, I can't help but think what good have we done with that extra day...

Did I do anything good today? Nah... not really.
I'll try again in 4 years time... *grin*




-And to a very special friend of mine... Happy Birthday Michael! Today officially makes him "9" years old!

After an eventful afternoon full of swashbuckling battles with HTML, multiple errors and a couple of painkillers later, i finally got my blog up and running again... So now i present to you Version 1.1 *applause*

The weekend has been pretty interesting... I had a pleasant surprise after church on sunday when i realised that my rear view mirror had decided to follow Newton's Law of Gravity. To add icing on the cake, no windscreen repair shops actually bother to open on a Sunday... So there i was happily driving around "illegally" till i got a neck sprain after all that head-turning... *aww*

Thank God i got it fixed this morning...

I've just added some photos of my family and myself. Those can be found in the section "A Moment in Time". For a certain individual who has been begging me for my baby photos... sorry my friend, u won't find it in here *nah nah nah*

In the past, when i was still young and a dolt (yes qiongz...), i used to think that taking pictures were such a waste of time and energy... I would rather run out and relish in the soft sand than be bothered with setting up the camera. It was only when i came to live here that i realised photos were much more than faces and scenery... Its a memory, a moment, that if not careful, would be lost forever in the sands of time. Now i finally understand why my dad placed so much emphasis in getting us together for that perfect shot... Thanks Dad.

testing blog... hope it works this time... *pray*

I've finally succumbed to writing a blog... Gota give credit to my friends out there whose blogs have inspired me to follow in their path. And I got to admit... everyone seems to be doing it but ME... *hah*

I've never got about writing a diary - I blatantly conceded defeat after the fourth entry. It's never easy to put to words feelings and emotions, the very things that stretches our minds in dimensions beyond the plane of pen and paper.

Expressions that we take for granted, like the slight tremble of the hand, sudden shift in eye contact, nervous stutter in one's speech and the ever obvious blush of one's cheeks... they're all simply an unconscious reaction to our environment. But when it comes to writing it down, woaah, you finally realise what you've just got yourself into... Just how on earth do u go about describing your life without running the risk of ending up like the script of Matrix Revolutions - where u walk out of the cinema wondering if the popcorn was actually salted or whether it was your tears of sadness, that such a wonderful story ended with a *poof*...

Eventually the diary might just evolve into a self-fabricated story that you want to see - kinda like the news we have these days where bad stuff is actually erm... good! (Oh admit it you American idol fans... you just love to see William Hung sing again right?)

But then I finally realised... this ain't the place to gloat to the world how wonderful your life is *yes yes... rub it in*, or complain to the point that duct tape has a purpose again. This is the perfect place to whine! Yes, I've finally found the one true meaning missing from my diary-life. U can't whine in yer diaries - all u get back in return is the cold hard stare of the horizontal lines on the page. Kinda makes your life worse huh...

Hah, not to worry... whine I shall not today. For a wise man once told me, "my little tum-tum... the hardest part of life is always the first step, the rest just depends on how u fall..." so I'm actually quite happy that I've managed to get this blog running.

Hopefully with all of your support, this blog will fall, gracefully, into the hearts of many.